Gods! How to start, well like I said in my previous post I about a week ago tommrow closed quite posibly the biggest magick circle in my life. Now to understand what happend there you had hear the circumstances of how I went from being banner bearer which is an honored position in itself, but usually falls to the youngest member of a kindred to become the githis right hand the hammer bearer. I was expecting to hold the banner which I could do ineberated to an extent and was still sober to do that job, but when it came down to either Yulfa doing both hallowing and ceremony which ( and I'm not saying she couldn't do it but that's a lot of energy for one person to expend and probly would have ruined her night) or I could sober myself enough in 30 min to do a proper hallowing and casting the circle closed so the ceremony would have the proper effect. Sobering myself that quickly is not an easy task. As a matter of fact usually if I can't drive, I won't cast. But Yulfa needed me and I came through even in a weakend state.
I healed myself today. I had pushed my body, mind & spirit to the limits last weekend by too much drink all together not to mention casting the largest magick circle I have ever cast in my life in an already weakend state. ( when I say big I mean big enough to hold around 30 people ) I was weakend because I didn't know I was going to have to hallow the circle. But hey crazy me I thought Thorulf was the hammer bearer not me.
It's kinda wierd how I have spent years accumalating a rather large library of books on magic and psycik developement from the age of 12. And granted I learned a lot about different forms and styles of magic and ceremony but could never find anything on the natural magick that seemed to come so easy to me untill here reciently. I have actually found two books on different subjects that are basically telling me to do the same things to develop my ablities through different exercieses to use the mind and willpower to use magick and psycik powers. The funny part is one book is on alchemy and the other is on mentalism.
Well it's monday again. Not even time for me to start work yet but I have already wound up doing someone elses job this morning. If I have to do third shifts job on the days I work first shift why not just put me on third shift only? I mean seriously. But I digress, had an awesome weekend this weekend. Fri didn't do a whole lot just ran with yulfa and did some errands, then went and got my check. Sat I worked my 6 hours at metro hall then went questing for spell components. After that I went and saw josh and brandy. Sun was the funnest of all. Yulfa and myself went to the flea market and to two peddlers malls. We found all kinds of cool crap and even made a list of stuff to go back and get later. It was lots of fun. We just walked around, talked and looked at old junk for the most part. Thorulf and bree were gonna meet us at the flea market but we must have walked right past them. So they kinda missed out on our fun day. But it's monday again and the work week carrys on just like it never ended. This shit of work, have a day off, work have a day off is getting kinda old cause it's pretty much like getting one day off a week, becuase fri is like a transitional day between third and first shifts. I basically sleep the entire day away. I'm hoping to soon get moved entirely to third shift. Here's to hoping huh.
So this is that sleep thing they keep telling me about. You know what? I think I could get used to this stuff. I,m actually starting to feel some of the benifets of decent and recouperative sleep and yeah, let's just say I'm likin the feeling quite a lot. I quite litteraly slept 4 hours today and felt like I had been out for 12 hours. I got up felt great, went and hung with anguz & yulfa for several hours. Tried to catch some z's on the couch and couldn't so I went to bed and put on the mask. Actually fell asleep for a little while, thank you alarm clock. So no I don't really mind kinda sounding like darth vader while I sleep. Hell I hope I get used to it soon cause just after 2 days I can tell a difference. All I can honestly say is wow, yeah that pretty much covers it. Wow!
Yes sleep machine. I had my sleep study monday night and oh yeah I got sleep aponea bad. The lady told me that in one hour I stopped breathing 80 times. Yeah wow that's a lot. All I can say is damn no wonder I am always tired. I have a feeling my getting used to the machine won't take too long at all. I just hope I can get a decent nights sleep today when I go to bed . Gods I felt so good earlier and now I'm sooooo tired. Man I can't wait for the night to be over!
Gods I have just finished the weekend from hell, but it came out all ok in the end. Woke up late for work saturday because the power got knocked out by a storm. Then on my way to work my sister calls to tell me my mom is in the hospital in lexington. So I go to work then I drive an hour and a half to lexington. I hang out there till around 7ish then I go and get something to eat and proceed to head back to louisville. About half way back I decide to swing by camp carlson so when I get back I just pass the exit for the house and mosey on over twards dixie hwy and ride it to radcliff. They all seemed glad to see me, but anguz and yulfa seemed the the happiest to see me as usual, hey I'm not surpriesed in the least. Well now we come to today which is monday. Got my sleep study tonight unless they change the date on me again. Man I hope not! Oh well running out of things to say so I think I'll go now. I may write more later if I feel like it.
Not as horrably perverted as it may sound. What I mean is trying to get through a night without caffeen jitters from overindulgence. So far so good. Only working on a half a pot so far and doing pretty well, but I had an iced chi earler as well. So its not like I've quit or anything. Oh saw brandy today and got her phone # again. Were suposed to get together for breakfast on tuesday. So ya know how that goes though. Well I'll type more later. Bye!
Good morning everyone! Had a pretty good night last night, but of course I had entirely too much coffee. I don't understand why I do it. It's kinda like asking why is the sky blue? Most people will answer "because it just is." we all know there is a scientific explanation for it, but your probly gonna have to ask the right person to find out what that is and you might not understand.
Good morning, good morrow and happy monday to all out there. In a decent mood today and feeling fairly well this morning with no complaints worth mentioning. Yup I have a feeling it's gonna be a pretty good day. 10.5 hours of work and enough stuff to keep me mentally occupied for at least most of that time. Sos not too bad, I mean where else you gonna get paid to entertain yourself for 10.5 hours and the only thing that's expected of you as long as nothing bad happens is to give infomation to those who ask and open the occational door for someone. Seriously it's a pretty sweet gig when you think about it. I honestly get paid to be a presence on mondays and saturdays. The rest of the week I'm a rolving pair of eyes that reports anything wrong or out of the ordinary, or as I like to call myself "the watcher in the dark". Hee hee what can I say it's got kinda heroic ring to it, but basicaly it's pretty easy cause I'm not scared of the dark.
